8.21.2006
Expert Beach Camper
If you ever have the chance to visit Lime Kiln State Park on the central Cali coast, please do it. We loved it.
I love this kooky drama queen!
The faces she makes are worth millions! Check out this mock look of surprise!
She's my daughter, she's my darling!
I decided Giz's hair was getting a bit mangy. So I cut it in about 60 seconds flat while she was squirming in the bath. Results:
8.17.2006
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Going on vacation always makes me very introspective. Ideally, it's a time to get away from normal life just when normal life is starting to grind. Even more ideally, it's a time when I re-realize that I really do enjoy my normal life and I'm excited to get back to it.
Just returned from a week-long San Diego beach vacation with all 38 members of my family (parents, sibs, spouses, and all kids of sibs and spouses). We hadn't all been together for 4 years, since #8 (Joecinogen) left for "the mish," before my parents left for their 3 year "mish," and before 6 of the 20 grandkids were born. So it was pretty monumental.
Although many awesome things happened there, I think one of my very favorite had nothing to do with me or my family:
Wednesday morning, I walked to the beach with Blue, Giz, and niece "Kawenakolina." Where concrete met sand, I noticed a small family (mom, dad, son). The son (about 20 y.o.?) was in a wheelchair, his legs limp---his whole body limp. They were just standing/sitting there observing the ocean from afar. I briefly thought about how hard it would be to be a parent taking my child to the ocean in a wheelchair---and how it would be so hard that you couldn't enjoy the normal ocean hoopla---I was sad for them for a second, and then got distracted by Giz, who at this point was hightailing it across the sand and running straight for waves.
About 15 minutes later, while jumping waves with Blue and Giz, I looked to my right and saw an amazing scene: "Dad" was standing in a semi-kneeling position (leg jutted out in front, with stabilizing leg in back) while "son" was propped up on dad's knee, the waves swirling around his legs. There was no talking---just standing in the waves. I looked behind and saw his wheelchair ditched several feet back in the dry sand, with the mom looking on, letting father and son have their moment together. Goosebumps.
I also saw some not-so-touching things, like a woman rollerblading in a string bikini (for the love!), a "zebra"/burro in Tijuana with whom we had our pic snapped (do they wash the paint off the poor animals ever?), the distinct difference one inch makes when you go through an iron whirlygig at a border crossing, too many jumbo-tron boob jobs, enough lower-back tattoos for a lifetime, wealth beyond compare in LaJolla, poverty beyond compare in Tijuana, a few somewhat-interesting episodes of Project Runway, Giz trying to outwit every impending stair-doom blockade, and a million flies, 99 of which I killed in one afternoon. [Diversion: I actually got a little obsessive about fly-swatting. It began out of dire necessity and then it became a game. Yes, a game. I killed 4 in one blow! And 3 in one blow more than once. Yes, tis true. After an hour, I started calling myself the "Fly Whisperer" because twice I took a napkin to a healthy fly and merely pinched---no swatter involved. I caught two flies with just my stealthy hand and a napkin!]
Highlights of the trip included:
*Laughing my guts out on the roller coaster at Belmont Park. I thought it was going to be totally whimpy. I was so caught by surprise at the hardcore characteristics of this mousetrap. I couldn't do anything but laugh so loud. It was the best therapy I've ever had. Just ask Ben and Becca and Jon. Meanwhile, Big Ben had been smashed by the metal safety bar---said he thought he might pass out from the excruciating pain caused to his thigh. He said my laughter right behind his ears was the only thing that, and I quote, "kept me going" (meaning alive).
*My girls modeling their darling hand-embroidered Tijuana dresses. That was well worth the border trauma (I forgot my I.D. and me and blue and ben were separated from jon and giz who were separated from joe and julianne. and we only had one cell phone. being "lost" in tijuana without i.d. is not a comforting feeling.)
*Late night discussions with family members. Some very intense and rollicking. It's awesome that families can have hugely divergent opinions---even about important matters---and still be fabulous friends.
*Dad's delicious smoothies. He fine-tuned this skill in Madagascar. In fact, all of the food was divine. Which is why I'm still feeling bloated.
*Pete's professional water color lesson. You should see my mad color chart. It's fetchin' awes.
*Listening to the waves. Boogie boarding. Sand beneath toes. Italian ice on the boardwalk.
*Chilling with the fam, and some awesome girl outings with my s-i-l.
*Figuring my life out for the next 50 years, or 20 minutes, whichever the case may be.
Just returned from a week-long San Diego beach vacation with all 38 members of my family (parents, sibs, spouses, and all kids of sibs and spouses). We hadn't all been together for 4 years, since #8 (Joecinogen) left for "the mish," before my parents left for their 3 year "mish," and before 6 of the 20 grandkids were born. So it was pretty monumental.
Although many awesome things happened there, I think one of my very favorite had nothing to do with me or my family:
Wednesday morning, I walked to the beach with Blue, Giz, and niece "Kawenakolina." Where concrete met sand, I noticed a small family (mom, dad, son). The son (about 20 y.o.?) was in a wheelchair, his legs limp---his whole body limp. They were just standing/sitting there observing the ocean from afar. I briefly thought about how hard it would be to be a parent taking my child to the ocean in a wheelchair---and how it would be so hard that you couldn't enjoy the normal ocean hoopla---I was sad for them for a second, and then got distracted by Giz, who at this point was hightailing it across the sand and running straight for waves.
About 15 minutes later, while jumping waves with Blue and Giz, I looked to my right and saw an amazing scene: "Dad" was standing in a semi-kneeling position (leg jutted out in front, with stabilizing leg in back) while "son" was propped up on dad's knee, the waves swirling around his legs. There was no talking---just standing in the waves. I looked behind and saw his wheelchair ditched several feet back in the dry sand, with the mom looking on, letting father and son have their moment together. Goosebumps.
I also saw some not-so-touching things, like a woman rollerblading in a string bikini (for the love!), a "zebra"/burro in Tijuana with whom we had our pic snapped (do they wash the paint off the poor animals ever?), the distinct difference one inch makes when you go through an iron whirlygig at a border crossing, too many jumbo-tron boob jobs, enough lower-back tattoos for a lifetime, wealth beyond compare in LaJolla, poverty beyond compare in Tijuana, a few somewhat-interesting episodes of Project Runway, Giz trying to outwit every impending stair-doom blockade, and a million flies, 99 of which I killed in one afternoon. [Diversion: I actually got a little obsessive about fly-swatting. It began out of dire necessity and then it became a game. Yes, a game. I killed 4 in one blow! And 3 in one blow more than once. Yes, tis true. After an hour, I started calling myself the "Fly Whisperer" because twice I took a napkin to a healthy fly and merely pinched---no swatter involved. I caught two flies with just my stealthy hand and a napkin!]
Highlights of the trip included:
*Laughing my guts out on the roller coaster at Belmont Park. I thought it was going to be totally whimpy. I was so caught by surprise at the hardcore characteristics of this mousetrap. I couldn't do anything but laugh so loud. It was the best therapy I've ever had. Just ask Ben and Becca and Jon. Meanwhile, Big Ben had been smashed by the metal safety bar---said he thought he might pass out from the excruciating pain caused to his thigh. He said my laughter right behind his ears was the only thing that, and I quote, "kept me going" (meaning alive).
*My girls modeling their darling hand-embroidered Tijuana dresses. That was well worth the border trauma (I forgot my I.D. and me and blue and ben were separated from jon and giz who were separated from joe and julianne. and we only had one cell phone. being "lost" in tijuana without i.d. is not a comforting feeling.)
*Late night discussions with family members. Some very intense and rollicking. It's awesome that families can have hugely divergent opinions---even about important matters---and still be fabulous friends.
*Dad's delicious smoothies. He fine-tuned this skill in Madagascar. In fact, all of the food was divine. Which is why I'm still feeling bloated.
*Pete's professional water color lesson. You should see my mad color chart. It's fetchin' awes.
*Listening to the waves. Boogie boarding. Sand beneath toes. Italian ice on the boardwalk.
*Chilling with the fam, and some awesome girl outings with my s-i-l.
*Figuring my life out for the next 50 years, or 20 minutes, whichever the case may be.
8.15.2006
Darlybird Has Landed! Finally!
Hey----I've been super duper busy with lots of things, namely a large-scale family reunion in San Diego and the "launching" of my Darlybird enterprise and working at the Sacramento LDS Temple Open House (just got home from a 7-hour shift and the feet are throbbing!) So, Darlybird's up and running, so start shopping if you feel so inclined. And for the few of you who already have, your orders will be on their way tomorrow. You picked cute stuff, you!
7.24.2006
Embrace the Heat
At the beginning of this summer, I decided that I would change my attitude and in some yogic state/trance/Zen moment, this phrase came to me: "embrace the heat." And I imagined myself in the hottest place possible and made myself enjoy the sensation. Lungs full of hot air, heat-induced claustrophobia, perma-sweaty hairline and all. It was a test of will and mind-over-matter that I thought I might possibly win. And, I've been doing pretty well this summer---thanks to my new philosophy---until this week and last.
115 degrees, friends. And I don't live in Arizona. The $7k a/c unit that we were forced to purchase in a similar-yet-way-less-toxic heat wave one month after our move-in date last year, (depleted our kitchen fund in one day) is trying to keep up. But alas, it has gotten up to 88 degrees in my house with the a/c running full blast. Our energy bill last month was $214 for 1780 sq ft. And that was last month. I don't think I want to be around when Mr. S (husband-o-mine) opens July's bill.
Our funky/mod '63 house with its slightly-sloped roof, exposed beams, single-paned 20 foot windows (2 of them west-facing for optimal afternoon sun), lack of attic and insulation are all conspiring against me right now.
Embrace the heat is not comforting anymore.
What are you doing to escape/embrace the heat? The best thing I can think of is a Lemonator Slurpee in a camelback, but then I'd have to get into the 150 degree car and drive to ghetto Sev-Elev....and the camelback would doubtless make me have back sweat in this inferno. No extra layers allowed!
(It's only supposed to be 111 tomorrow. That's comforting.)
115 degrees, friends. And I don't live in Arizona. The $7k a/c unit that we were forced to purchase in a similar-yet-way-less-toxic heat wave one month after our move-in date last year, (depleted our kitchen fund in one day) is trying to keep up. But alas, it has gotten up to 88 degrees in my house with the a/c running full blast. Our energy bill last month was $214 for 1780 sq ft. And that was last month. I don't think I want to be around when Mr. S (husband-o-mine) opens July's bill.
Our funky/mod '63 house with its slightly-sloped roof, exposed beams, single-paned 20 foot windows (2 of them west-facing for optimal afternoon sun), lack of attic and insulation are all conspiring against me right now.
Embrace the heat is not comforting anymore.
What are you doing to escape/embrace the heat? The best thing I can think of is a Lemonator Slurpee in a camelback, but then I'd have to get into the 150 degree car and drive to ghetto Sev-Elev....and the camelback would doubtless make me have back sweat in this inferno. No extra layers allowed!
(It's only supposed to be 111 tomorrow. That's comforting.)
7.20.2006
Allergic
Warning: This post is very self-indulgent/reflective/un-intellectual (not that I'm usually an intellectual power-house, but....) and is probably utterly useless and un-interesting to the general public. But sometimes blogging is all about figuring things out and I've got some figuring to do. So read at your own risk. And please don't say that I'm the most ungrateful and selfish and blessed person on the planet. I know that already and I don't need another stranger to rain on my parade.
I've had an interesting two weeks of many allergic reactions, none of which have included food or pollen. I've basically been allergic to myself and various family members and the world in general on and off---to varying extents and with varying side effects.
I think I coined the term "allergic to myself" once when I was trying to figure out the underlying cause of a certain period of glumness. And there were too many little things that were nothing and everything all at the same time---monumental and minute---that contributed to the overall feeling of angst. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Life is such a hodge-podge of bliss, normal, gloomy, content, anxious, peaceful---repeated ad infinitum. At least for me, and I don't think I'm alone in this category. (But quite possibly on a more extreme side, since I am admittedly a titch emotional.)
Since I can remember, I've compared, evaluated, computed myself with everyone around me. I'm taller, shorter, smarter, fatter, messier, cleaner, skinnier, luckier, less spiritual, a worse mother, more scattered, more daring, whimpier, etc . . . . And I probably was comparing myself to others long before I can remember. Little Leah often makes remarks like, "I wish I had straight hair like ________" and I shudder to think that the self-doubt and loathing (?) begins that early. But it obviously does. And I don't want to blame the media (although I feel it is culpable to some degree), or other outlets in my life or in Leah's or in yours.
I'm beginning to think that self-doubt/"the allergy to self" is an inherent (programmed?) emotion in all people. Adam and Eve didn't have Vogue or Bravo or VH1. Did they always have fabulous self-esteem? Probably not. Does it matter? Probably not. Or maybe so if I'm trying to get to the bottom of this. But that's kind of a diversion....
So back to the specific allergies-----I've been really bugged at everyone (myself included) and I think I need to purge:
Global warming. It's freakin' 112 degrees in my lovely non-deseret and I started getting a little panicky the other day as I was driving and looking at all of the other cars driving
and spewing out toxic emissions. I literally started thinking about 15 years from now and the virtual wasteland my city will be if it just keeps getting hotter. And then I started planning a move to the northwest (I'll be joining you, ph!), because surely it will be the only place to live and survive (or Alaska?)----and I better buy property now because it'll be 6677788% inflated in a few years of increased global warming, when Seattle becomes the new Malibu. And I haven't even seen Al Gore's new movie yet. Maybe I shouldn't.
Husband MIA. My dear Jonnie went on his annual climbing trip with brother, dad, and friend, which left me with 2 rugrats for 4 days. And I am not good at that. I hate sleeping alone, I can't handle 2 kids on my own, and I find that I distance myself from Jon when he's ready to go on a climbing trip because I imagine his head splattered on the rocks below. And if I get the call from the Bishop or the Sheriff and I'm mad at him and distant, than the death blow won't be so deathly. But this brings up larger issues: I feel like an incompetent, whimpy mom and the comparisons sink in. I know many a mother who handles these things in stride, who doesn't skip a beat without her husband helping, who glories in all things domestic and child-involved. There are thousands of "single" mothers due to Operation Crush the Axis of Evil, having babies by themselves, dealing with health issues, the absence and sometimes death of their spouses. Not to mention the single mothers who don't even have any support whatsoever. Furthermore, the fabulous women who would love to have rugrats and make extraordinary mothers, but haven't been able to yet. And then I even feel more allergic to my sorry "A" self. But it is hard to put everything into perspective when Esther has had yet another toilet experience (this one involved the wax seal around the yet-to-be-installed new toilet, a dry erase marker, and another call to poison control, followed by her jurassic screams---all in one incident), followed by peeing on the floor, followed by dumping the remains of Leah's soggy Rice Krispies on herself and the carpet in a 5-minute blitzkrieg of staggering heights. Egads! I love the monsties, but I want to swear out loud about 50 times a day. And I don't think that's normal.
Business Overload/Motherhood Overload. I have loved every aspect of planning and executing darlybird, except for the final push. And now I've become a nazi of sorts with my time and expectations. I think Jon should view my business with equal importance to his job (which in many ways it really isn't--mainly because it doesn't provide for the welfare of our family---yet). A dear righteous mama gave me some sage advice yesterday: "if it's not fun/fulfilling for you right now and is hampering your familial relationships, slow down. something's wrong. don't push too hard." (or something along those lines--don't worry, i wasn't wire-tapping) and so now i'm taking a deep breath and setting realistic goals for myself. and I already have infused more joy and rejoicing into my life in just the last 24 hours. And cutest of cutes, Leah B just showed me a really awesome bracelet that I have yet to photograph, write about, upload, etc, and said, "Mom, I really want to wear this bracelet when I'm a mommy, mommy. Can I?" She loves looking at my products and begs to own all of them. (Yeah right! This is a business, kid!) Last week she told Jon that Darlybird makes her sad sometimes because I don't play with her as much as I used to. Why is motherhood a toxic/magical cocktail of joy, guilt, sorrow, and rejoicing? YIKES! So, I am still going strong on the darlybird front, but I will probably launch post-family-reunion-welcome-home-mom-and-dad-celebration, or in other words, August 15th. And I have to be fine about that. (even though i'm sort of not!?!) And please email me your addresses (rachel@darlybird.com) if you want to do some marketing for me!~ I'll mail you pre-stamped post cards to mail to your friends who may or may not be interested. And thanks to those of you who already have emailed me your info. I just need to make it to the p.o. now to buy scads of stamps. And then they'll be on their way.
And I think that about does it. I've pretty much depleted my allergies. And it's almost 10 and Esther has been in bed for two hours (awake) and is now screaming. This is motherhood. Thank goodness Jon is taking care of it!
A poem, quickly:
Looking up from my book, from the close countable lines,
into the finished-full night outside:
how in starry measure my packed feelings scatter,
as though a bouquet of wildflowers
were being untied:
youth of the light ones and bending sway of the heavy ones
and the tender ones' hesitant curve----
Everywhere joy in relation and nowhere any craving;
world in excess and earth sufficient.
And a fabulous quote, by the same author as the poem (Rainer Maria Rilke):
"I beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer...."
I've had an interesting two weeks of many allergic reactions, none of which have included food or pollen. I've basically been allergic to myself and various family members and the world in general on and off---to varying extents and with varying side effects.
I think I coined the term "allergic to myself" once when I was trying to figure out the underlying cause of a certain period of glumness. And there were too many little things that were nothing and everything all at the same time---monumental and minute---that contributed to the overall feeling of angst. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Life is such a hodge-podge of bliss, normal, gloomy, content, anxious, peaceful---repeated ad infinitum. At least for me, and I don't think I'm alone in this category. (But quite possibly on a more extreme side, since I am admittedly a titch emotional.)
Since I can remember, I've compared, evaluated, computed myself with everyone around me. I'm taller, shorter, smarter, fatter, messier, cleaner, skinnier, luckier, less spiritual, a worse mother, more scattered, more daring, whimpier, etc . . . . And I probably was comparing myself to others long before I can remember. Little Leah often makes remarks like, "I wish I had straight hair like ________" and I shudder to think that the self-doubt and loathing (?) begins that early. But it obviously does. And I don't want to blame the media (although I feel it is culpable to some degree), or other outlets in my life or in Leah's or in yours.
I'm beginning to think that self-doubt/"the allergy to self" is an inherent (programmed?) emotion in all people. Adam and Eve didn't have Vogue or Bravo or VH1. Did they always have fabulous self-esteem? Probably not. Does it matter? Probably not. Or maybe so if I'm trying to get to the bottom of this. But that's kind of a diversion....
So back to the specific allergies-----I've been really bugged at everyone (myself included) and I think I need to purge:
Global warming. It's freakin' 112 degrees in my lovely non-deseret and I started getting a little panicky the other day as I was driving and looking at all of the other cars driving
and spewing out toxic emissions. I literally started thinking about 15 years from now and the virtual wasteland my city will be if it just keeps getting hotter. And then I started planning a move to the northwest (I'll be joining you, ph!), because surely it will be the only place to live and survive (or Alaska?)----and I better buy property now because it'll be 6677788% inflated in a few years of increased global warming, when Seattle becomes the new Malibu. And I haven't even seen Al Gore's new movie yet. Maybe I shouldn't.
Husband MIA. My dear Jonnie went on his annual climbing trip with brother, dad, and friend, which left me with 2 rugrats for 4 days. And I am not good at that. I hate sleeping alone, I can't handle 2 kids on my own, and I find that I distance myself from Jon when he's ready to go on a climbing trip because I imagine his head splattered on the rocks below. And if I get the call from the Bishop or the Sheriff and I'm mad at him and distant, than the death blow won't be so deathly. But this brings up larger issues: I feel like an incompetent, whimpy mom and the comparisons sink in. I know many a mother who handles these things in stride, who doesn't skip a beat without her husband helping, who glories in all things domestic and child-involved. There are thousands of "single" mothers due to Operation Crush the Axis of Evil, having babies by themselves, dealing with health issues, the absence and sometimes death of their spouses. Not to mention the single mothers who don't even have any support whatsoever. Furthermore, the fabulous women who would love to have rugrats and make extraordinary mothers, but haven't been able to yet. And then I even feel more allergic to my sorry "A" self. But it is hard to put everything into perspective when Esther has had yet another toilet experience (this one involved the wax seal around the yet-to-be-installed new toilet, a dry erase marker, and another call to poison control, followed by her jurassic screams---all in one incident), followed by peeing on the floor, followed by dumping the remains of Leah's soggy Rice Krispies on herself and the carpet in a 5-minute blitzkrieg of staggering heights. Egads! I love the monsties, but I want to swear out loud about 50 times a day. And I don't think that's normal.
Business Overload/Motherhood Overload. I have loved every aspect of planning and executing darlybird, except for the final push. And now I've become a nazi of sorts with my time and expectations. I think Jon should view my business with equal importance to his job (which in many ways it really isn't--mainly because it doesn't provide for the welfare of our family---yet). A dear righteous mama gave me some sage advice yesterday: "if it's not fun/fulfilling for you right now and is hampering your familial relationships, slow down. something's wrong. don't push too hard." (or something along those lines--don't worry, i wasn't wire-tapping) and so now i'm taking a deep breath and setting realistic goals for myself. and I already have infused more joy and rejoicing into my life in just the last 24 hours. And cutest of cutes, Leah B just showed me a really awesome bracelet that I have yet to photograph, write about, upload, etc, and said, "Mom, I really want to wear this bracelet when I'm a mommy, mommy. Can I?" She loves looking at my products and begs to own all of them. (Yeah right! This is a business, kid!) Last week she told Jon that Darlybird makes her sad sometimes because I don't play with her as much as I used to. Why is motherhood a toxic/magical cocktail of joy, guilt, sorrow, and rejoicing? YIKES! So, I am still going strong on the darlybird front, but I will probably launch post-family-reunion-welcome-home-mom-and-dad-celebration, or in other words, August 15th. And I have to be fine about that. (even though i'm sort of not!?!) And please email me your addresses (rachel@darlybird.com) if you want to do some marketing for me!~ I'll mail you pre-stamped post cards to mail to your friends who may or may not be interested. And thanks to those of you who already have emailed me your info. I just need to make it to the p.o. now to buy scads of stamps. And then they'll be on their way.
And I think that about does it. I've pretty much depleted my allergies. And it's almost 10 and Esther has been in bed for two hours (awake) and is now screaming. This is motherhood. Thank goodness Jon is taking care of it!
A poem, quickly:
Looking up from my book, from the close countable lines,
into the finished-full night outside:
how in starry measure my packed feelings scatter,
as though a bouquet of wildflowers
were being untied:
youth of the light ones and bending sway of the heavy ones
and the tender ones' hesitant curve----
Everywhere joy in relation and nowhere any craving;
world in excess and earth sufficient.
And a fabulous quote, by the same author as the poem (Rainer Maria Rilke):
"I beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer...."
7.11.2006
Many Random Things
Jon and I just ended a 7-week period of pretty much constant visitors or house-guests. Although I must admit that it does feel nice to reclaim our domain, I also have this feeling of "uh-oh, when are we gonna get more friends in here?" I love friends. I love visitors. So I'm pimpin' our pad out to a few specific individuals (mainly in my family), and you're all welcome, too. Unless you're a greasy 65 year-old cyberstalker on the Megan's Law list.
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I also must admit that I almost cried at the end of my new favorite movie. Not because it was sad or terribly moving, but because it was OVER! So I realized that if I liked it enough to mourn the ending, I better plug it publicly. That movie is: LONG WAY ROUND. Let me tell you the general premise:
Ewan McGregor and his buddy Charlie drive around the world on motorcycles. That's it. But it's so amazing to see their adventures and their pitfalls and especially the interesting people they come across---especially in Kazakstan (which I'm sure I just misspelled) and Mongolia and Russia. It is a documentary, essentially, with 7 episodes. I netflix-ed it. You must netflix it. It is freakin' hilarous in many parts. And suspenseful and crazy. But beware---they're from the UK and they drop the f-bomb several times, so if you're language-sensitive, just pretend they're saying something else. It's not rated and even if it was I would deem it worth bending rules.
One more thing: Long Way Round cemented my crush on Ewan. I have been holding out a candle for him since Moulin Rouge (I think Obi Wan is HIDEOUS, so not that Ewan) and I just had to tell myself that the real Ewan wasn't that cool. But he is. He is a sensitive new-age man. Jon knows about my crush and has admitted to having one on him, too. So it's all good.
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Random Business Plugs:
My friend Emily Ann a.k.a. Eroo has started making the super-coolist bracelets. She has a blog devoted to them. And I'm going to link to it as soon as I remember the correct url. Just a second. OK. Here they are! I have the vintage luggage tag with gold metallic accents and the comic book one. What's yours going to have?
My sister Susannah is starting a super-cool clothing line called Pronk. You can read all about it. She uses exquisite materials and there is a ton of hand stitching, embroidery, smocking, etc. on the items. They are manufactured in Madagascar. They are amazing. They would fit well in Anthropologie, if you like that style. Not Target. Not Forever 21. Not some hoochie boutique. These are quality items, friends. And beautiful.
And oh yeah, I'm almost ready to start taking orders on darlybird the biz. I'm excited and slightly nervous. But I think it's lookin' good. You can email me product suggestions, or just any other suggestions at rachel@darlybird.com
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Lastly but not leastly, my parents are returning from Madagascar via Paris on Thursday after 3 long years there. They did an amazing job as mission presidents and they are DONE! And hallelujah for that!
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I also must admit that I almost cried at the end of my new favorite movie. Not because it was sad or terribly moving, but because it was OVER! So I realized that if I liked it enough to mourn the ending, I better plug it publicly. That movie is: LONG WAY ROUND. Let me tell you the general premise:
Ewan McGregor and his buddy Charlie drive around the world on motorcycles. That's it. But it's so amazing to see their adventures and their pitfalls and especially the interesting people they come across---especially in Kazakstan (which I'm sure I just misspelled) and Mongolia and Russia. It is a documentary, essentially, with 7 episodes. I netflix-ed it. You must netflix it. It is freakin' hilarous in many parts. And suspenseful and crazy. But beware---they're from the UK and they drop the f-bomb several times, so if you're language-sensitive, just pretend they're saying something else. It's not rated and even if it was I would deem it worth bending rules.
One more thing: Long Way Round cemented my crush on Ewan. I have been holding out a candle for him since Moulin Rouge (I think Obi Wan is HIDEOUS, so not that Ewan) and I just had to tell myself that the real Ewan wasn't that cool. But he is. He is a sensitive new-age man. Jon knows about my crush and has admitted to having one on him, too. So it's all good.
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Random Business Plugs:
My friend Emily Ann a.k.a. Eroo has started making the super-coolist bracelets. She has a blog devoted to them. And I'm going to link to it as soon as I remember the correct url. Just a second. OK. Here they are! I have the vintage luggage tag with gold metallic accents and the comic book one. What's yours going to have?
My sister Susannah is starting a super-cool clothing line called Pronk. You can read all about it. She uses exquisite materials and there is a ton of hand stitching, embroidery, smocking, etc. on the items. They are manufactured in Madagascar. They are amazing. They would fit well in Anthropologie, if you like that style. Not Target. Not Forever 21. Not some hoochie boutique. These are quality items, friends. And beautiful.
And oh yeah, I'm almost ready to start taking orders on darlybird the biz. I'm excited and slightly nervous. But I think it's lookin' good. You can email me product suggestions, or just any other suggestions at rachel@darlybird.com
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Lastly but not leastly, my parents are returning from Madagascar via Paris on Thursday after 3 long years there. They did an amazing job as mission presidents and they are DONE! And hallelujah for that!
6.29.2006
30 is bonafide
So yesterday was my birthday. 30. I don't know why, but I felt it necessary to tell almost everyone--including complete strangers--that I was 30. Leah's preschool teacher found out, the bagger at Safeway who wheeled my cart out to the car, and Elmer at DI who tried to console me after the fabulous mid-century couch that I came back to buy had been snatched up just 30 minutes prior. I didn't earn the nickname "emotional slut" way back when for nothing. Actually, I gave myself that nickname, but it caught on like wildfire around the inner sanctum.
I've never really dreaded these turning points. I know people who sobbed on their 30th because they felt some sort of loss and the need to grieve. I am happily saying 'hasta' to the 20s and the many interesting experiences of them. My 20s weren't bad, in fact they were a downright monumental decade (college, marriage, teaching career, two children, homes, starting a business), but I'm ready to settle into the 30s and realize that I probably won't have as many life-altering changes in this decade as I did in the last. And that is comforting, because although I crave and relish the little changes in life (hairstyle, furnishings, restaurant choice, etc.), I could win the WORLD'S LEAST GRACEFUL LIFE CHANGER award hands down.
I have a fabulous friend/soul sister/sister in Zion who turned 30 last month. She made it a beautiful and thoughtful occasion. She thought about what she wanted to do (i.e. have kids, make delicious food, buy a house) in the future and then celebrated each goal symbolically. I didn't have the forethought to make mine so amazing, but that's okay because it turned out pretty great anyway.
Although Jonnie decided that birthday week was preposterous, he surprised me with "birthday 3 days." So I received a beautiful bouquet of roses on Tuesday, a 4 gig nano ipod and the nicest card he's ever written me on Wednesday, and I think today is See's Chocolates. (Hoping, hoping, hoping.) I like 3 days for thirty. Maybe I'll get birthday week when I turn 70 . . .
Yesterday I talked to/spent time with many of my favorite people--you know who you are--and I think I kind of had this little smile inside all day, knowing that I had a secret----actually, it wasn't quite a secret because I felt obliged to tell everyone and their . . . , but you get the picture. It was cause for continual internal smile.
In the spirit of retrospection, I thought about some of my experiences over the last 3 decades and realized that I've experienced some amazing adventures, beautiful friendships, intense trials, hilarious escapades, and the comfort of a wonderful family from whom I came and a wonderful family of which I am co-captain. It's been a good 30 years. I have been abundantly blessed. Thanks!
And so 30. I woke up this morning and felt pretty grown up, but still pretty young. I'm legit, but I still have a few free-passes to be slightly foolish. No longer a 20-something wanderer? I feel re-inspired to live life to the fullest, and be deliberate in all of my actions. It's nice.
So I'm taking a deep breath and ushering in a new decade of renewed and continuing relationships, healthy lifestyle choices (although I don't think I'll be giving up my diet pepsi habit any time soon), deliberate decisions, exciting adventures, and renewed spirituality. It's refreshing. And although I'm perfectly pleased to be living in the here and now, I can't help but look a little forward to "birthday 4 days" celebration and what life will look like from that vantage point. Isn't life exciting?
I've never really dreaded these turning points. I know people who sobbed on their 30th because they felt some sort of loss and the need to grieve. I am happily saying 'hasta' to the 20s and the many interesting experiences of them. My 20s weren't bad, in fact they were a downright monumental decade (college, marriage, teaching career, two children, homes, starting a business), but I'm ready to settle into the 30s and realize that I probably won't have as many life-altering changes in this decade as I did in the last. And that is comforting, because although I crave and relish the little changes in life (hairstyle, furnishings, restaurant choice, etc.), I could win the WORLD'S LEAST GRACEFUL LIFE CHANGER award hands down.
I have a fabulous friend/soul sister/sister in Zion who turned 30 last month. She made it a beautiful and thoughtful occasion. She thought about what she wanted to do (i.e. have kids, make delicious food, buy a house) in the future and then celebrated each goal symbolically. I didn't have the forethought to make mine so amazing, but that's okay because it turned out pretty great anyway.
Although Jonnie decided that birthday week was preposterous, he surprised me with "birthday 3 days." So I received a beautiful bouquet of roses on Tuesday, a 4 gig nano ipod and the nicest card he's ever written me on Wednesday, and I think today is See's Chocolates. (Hoping, hoping, hoping.) I like 3 days for thirty. Maybe I'll get birthday week when I turn 70 . . .
Yesterday I talked to/spent time with many of my favorite people--you know who you are--and I think I kind of had this little smile inside all day, knowing that I had a secret----actually, it wasn't quite a secret because I felt obliged to tell everyone and their . . . , but you get the picture. It was cause for continual internal smile.
In the spirit of retrospection, I thought about some of my experiences over the last 3 decades and realized that I've experienced some amazing adventures, beautiful friendships, intense trials, hilarious escapades, and the comfort of a wonderful family from whom I came and a wonderful family of which I am co-captain. It's been a good 30 years. I have been abundantly blessed. Thanks!
And so 30. I woke up this morning and felt pretty grown up, but still pretty young. I'm legit, but I still have a few free-passes to be slightly foolish. No longer a 20-something wanderer? I feel re-inspired to live life to the fullest, and be deliberate in all of my actions. It's nice.
So I'm taking a deep breath and ushering in a new decade of renewed and continuing relationships, healthy lifestyle choices (although I don't think I'll be giving up my diet pepsi habit any time soon), deliberate decisions, exciting adventures, and renewed spirituality. It's refreshing. And although I'm perfectly pleased to be living in the here and now, I can't help but look a little forward to "birthday 4 days" celebration and what life will look like from that vantage point. Isn't life exciting?
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